Bigman Blogs

 As I tucked in the envelope and was getting ready to leave, I remembered I had only my fixed blade knife with me. I started doubting myself and paranoia set in. If I was going to meet them, I should be prepared and I felt unprepared. Was this the path to self destruction? I asked myself. Doubting yourself. What if I took a sip of a the whiskey in Peter's kitchen? I had to chuckle at this thought since am Muslim and don't drink but I had to acknowledge where the thought originated from. It originated from a fear that was long neglected due to a misplaced self-confidence. It was time to face my fears and test the theory of a plan I crafted 3 years ago.  Sensing all these questions and emotions on my face, Peter called out, " You know if you are going to be facing them, asking for your mentor's advice is not a big deal" "You don't even believe that yourself" I said It was true. He and I knew we couldn't involve my long time mentor Mr X as I did not

  01100110 01101111 01110010 00100000 01110111 01101000 01100001 01110100 00100000 01110100 01101000 01100101 01111001 00100000 01101000 01100001 01110110 01100101 00100000 01100011 01110010 01100001 01100110 01110100 01100101 01100100 00100000 01101001 01110011 00100000 01100001 00100000 01101101 01100001 01100111 01101001 01100011 01101001 01100001 01101110 01110011 00100111 01110011 00100000 01110100 01110010 01101001 01100011 01101011 01100010 01101001 01101110 01100001 01110010 01111001 01110101 01110000 01110100 01101111 01101110 01101111 01110011 01110111 01101001 01101100 01101100 01101110 01101111 01110100 01110011 01110101 01100011 01100011 01100101 01100101 01100100 01101001 01101110 01100001 00100000 01101101 01100001 01100111 01101001 01100011 01101001 01100001 01101110 01110011 01110111 01101001 01101100 01101100 01101110 01101111 01110100 01110011 01110101 01100011 01100011 01100101 01100101 01100100 01101001 01101110 01100001 01100111 01101001 01100011 01101001 01100001

"Firstly, the accurate understanding of  tawakkul  is not merely based on the idea of reliance, but also on the human’s recognition of being imperfect creation of God which would naturally limit their ability to overcome life’s challenges alone without God. It is a recognition that humans could still fail despite putting the best effort for life’s objective and, thus, they must rely on God’s support. For that, as humans, we should strive to strengthen our relationship with God through constant  ibadah  and not letting life’s endeavours neglect the devotional obligation to Him." https://muslim.sg/articles/tawakkul-meaning I often dreamed of having a close personal relationship with my Lord and how it would look mostly brought out into my consciousness by lecturers in mosques. After a while, I would forget about it sometimes years might pass until I was able to ask myself that question again and thoughts and ideas would race in my mind as to how it might look like. That was whe